PUKE IT ALL OUT

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PUKE IT ALL OUT.



THE WORST THING THAT
A BODY CAN PERFORM 
NATURALLY IS
PUKING.
I JUST HATE IT FROM THE CORE.
THAT'S WHY I JUST DON'T PUKE,
I KEEP IT INSIDE MY GUT
EVEN IF THE HILL IS TOO CIRCULAR
OR THE ROAD IS TOO BUMPY,
I JUST KEEP TO MYSELF.

IT IS VERY DIFFICULT FOR ME 
TO PUKE.
OR EVEN INITIATE IT
A LOT OF TIMES WHEN
I'M EXTREMELY  ILL,
MY PARENTS RECOMMEND ME
TO JUST PUT A FINGER DOWN MY THROAT
AND LET IT ALL OUT.
TO LET OUT OF THE WASTE THAT
I'VE BEEN STORING
FOR LONG
BUT HAD NO GUTS TO SPILL IT SO, 
I KEPT IN MY GUT.

BUT TODAY IT WAS DIFFERENT
IT WAS STRANGE,
 I WAS LIGHT AND DID'NT HAD
ANYTHING SO HEAVY,
BUT YES I WAS FEELING TOXIC
ABOUT A LOT OF THINGS 
FROM MY PAST.
AND ALL OF A SUDDEN
I FELT RELIEVED
AFTER PUKING.
I PUKED
PUKED IT ALL TO A STRANGER
WHO WOULD'NT COMMENT
ON MY EATING HABITS,
ON MY PERSONAL CHOICES,
WHO WON'T JUDGE ME THE WAY I PUKE
AND WHO WOULD'NT CARE 
FOR HOW LONG OR
WHAT COLOR IT LOOKS LIKE.

I THINK I JUST WANTED
SOMEONE WHO WOULD'NT KNOW ME
OR PROBABLY WAS CAREFUL ENOUGH TO KNOW
THAT IT'S NOT EASY TO PUKE IT ALL OUT
AND YOU DON'T NEED SYMPATHY 
OR TIME OR GRATITUDE
TO LET SOMEONE PUKE.
ALL YOU NEED IS 
FEELING OF TRUST MAYBE.
BUT WHY THIS STRANGER?

BECAUSE THEY ARE AWARE ABOUT 
THE TYPES OF PUKES
THEY ARE PROFESSIONALS
AND HAVE HELPED MANY
TO PUKE THEIR GUT OUT.
IT'S NECESSARY FOR YOUR BODY TO DETOX,
GET YOURSELF DETOXED,
IT TAKES TIME FOR PEOPLE
TO GET AWAY FROM SOME DIFFERENT
SHIT THAT THEY'VE BEEN STORING
IT FOR SO LONG.
AND I THINK I'M FINALLY READY TO 
PUKE IT ALL OUT
UNTIL I START FEELING TO 
EAT AND TRY NEW
ASPECT AND CUISINES OF MY LIFE.


UNTIL THEN
GET A DETOX AND
 PUKE IT ALL OUT.


SANJIVANI SHARMA




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