I'M DRAINED OUT

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I'M DRAINED OUT


I WAS LEFT NUMB
IT TRIGGERED ME 
TO MY CORE.
SOMETHING PINNED 
ME INSIDE MY GUT
SO HARD
LIKE I KNEW 
IT'S GOING TO 
BURST VERY SOON,
DID'NT KNEW THIS SOON.
I WAS KEEPING
IT ALL INSIDE,
I CAN'T TAKE IT OUT 
IT ISN'T THAT EASY.
I JUST DON'T KNOW 
HOW TO.
IT WAS BECOMING HEAVY
IT WAS ALREADY HEAVY
AND IT STILL FEELS SO HEAVY.
NEVER THOUGHT
KEEPING IN WOULD
MAKE ME HOLLOW
CAPTURING 
ALL OF MY SPACE.
I FEEL SO NUMB
TO LET IT OUT A LITTLE
AS I WAS KEEPING
IT IN FOR SO LONG.
I HAVE NO IDEA
WHY AM I SAVING IT?
FOR WHOM AM I SAVING IT?
IT'S JUST FILLING IN
AND THERE'S SO MUCH..
I CAN'T EVEN MEASURE
IT JUST FEELS SO HEAVY
IT'S THE ENVIRONMENT
SOCIAL MEDIA
IMAGES THAT ARE TRIGGERING
ME MORE TO PUSH MYSELF.
NOW
IT FEELS LIKE
SOMEBODY HAVE OPENED A TAP
AND ALL MY ENERGY
IS DRAINING 
AND I DON'T KNOW
HOW TO STOP IT.
EVERYTHING THAT I'M
KEEPING MYSELF 
FEEL GOOD WITH
I ALREADY KNOW,
BUT IT'S JUST NOT HAPPENING.
IT'S PROBABLY TIME
FOR ME TO 
ACTUALLY TAKE TIME
AND 
JUST BE CALM.
I'M DRAINED OUT.

TIME TO PEACE WITHIN

I WAS IGNORANT BUT IT'S REAL.

SANJIVANI SHARMA

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